Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Where does it start and where do I begin???
Where is the line between illness and individual?
Where does Bipolar start and where do I begin?
Where is the line that determines where symptoms stop and the real me begins?
I am responsible for every single thing I do. I do not dispute this, never have. But do I deserve to be punished for behaviours and actions that are a direct result of symptoms of my disorder over which I truly, at times, have no control?
Where does the blame start? And where does it end?
Where does compassion and empathy belong, and when is harsh cold blame the only option?
I never meant to hurt anyone. Never wanted to hurt anyone. Not one single person, ever, in my entire life.
But my disease has hurt them. My crazy actions spurred on by my disease have hurt them. My desperate attempts to just make the pain stop because the Bipolar will just not let go have hurt them.
Where do I stop and it begins?
As of right now, I really don't know....