ok so i slept in...
had a nap.....
watched too much tv.....
binged on bread, perogies, chocolate, and cookies....
and purged....
so not a good start.
i can do this. I can do this. I CAN do this. I CAN DO this. I CAN DO THIS!!!!
tomorrow's plan.... wake up at a decent hour. you are fabulous, you deserve good things. no bingeing. no purging. call dr. call work. pick up meds. new tires.
breakfast: oatmeal, berries, yogurt
lunch: 3 egg whites, one egg, spinach, tomato, peppers, onion
supper: chicken or tuna, veggies, greens
snacks: almonds, apple, yogurt
now all i need is motivation and willpower
oh if only it were that easy....
also energy, drive, a meaningful goal, direction
and HELP
a woman diagnosed with bipolar 2 17 years ago rants about mood swings, mixed states, rapid cycling, insomnia, self esteem, abuse, medication, therapy, doctors, eating disorders and everything else related to this wacky disorder
i have bipolar 2. which in my view is the shittiest kind and here's why..... i'm depressed waaaayyy more than i am manic. i am depressed more than i am normal in fact. and when i am manic it is only hypo-manic. semi-euphoria. some suggest that makes it more manageable and to that i say "fuck you". i also suffer from mixed states and rapid cycling. yay me! i write this fully aware i'm probably the only person who will ever see it.....
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