i have bipolar 2. which in my view is the shittiest kind and here's why..... i'm depressed waaaayyy more than i am manic. i am depressed more than i am normal in fact. and when i am manic it is only hypo-manic. semi-euphoria. some suggest that makes it more manageable and to that i say "fuck you". i also suffer from mixed states and rapid cycling. yay me! i write this fully aware i'm probably the only person who will ever see it.....







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Monday, April 5, 2010

day one did not go well....

ok so i slept in...

had a nap.....

watched too much tv.....

binged on bread, perogies, chocolate, and cookies....

and purged....

so not a good start.

i can do this. I can do this. I CAN do this. I CAN DO this. I CAN DO THIS!!!!

tomorrow's plan.... wake up at a decent hour. you are fabulous, you deserve good things. no bingeing. no purging. call dr. call work. pick up meds. new tires.

breakfast: oatmeal, berries, yogurt
lunch: 3 egg whites, one egg, spinach, tomato, peppers, onion
supper: chicken or tuna, veggies, greens
snacks: almonds, apple, yogurt

now all i need is motivation and willpower

oh if only it were that easy....

also energy, drive, a meaningful goal, direction

and HELP

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